DEAR GOD'S BEST (2nd letter)

I decided to write this letter because first and foremost, 

I want to honor God with my heart and I want to honor you as my future love.

In these past years, I've been dealing with trust issues. 

There was a fear inside of me that kept on bursting not to trust people, especially, men.

 Something happened in the past that really hurt my heart. 

(I'm gonna tell it to you when it's time.)

And this past kept on holding me back and hurting me. 

It really affected my trust in people and sadly, in my relationship with God. 

And I just want to say sorry because 

I thought that I couldn't trust you either. 

That wrong mindset gave me an idea that you will also leave and betray me. 

And this fear, I surrender to Jesus. 

I'm sorry for judging you too early. 

I'm sorry for almost giving up on waiting for that 

God-given and orchestrated time
that we'll see each other with our very own eyes. 

Forgive me. 
I'm sorry for being self-centered. 
I CHOOSE TO LET GO OF THE PAST AND GIVE IT TO ABBA FATHER'S HANDS.
From now on, I CHOOSE TO TRUST GOD that He is able to move mightily
in our story. And I CHOOSE TO TRUST YOU. 

I am persistently praying that God will work in my heart

 to fully trust Him on this and that 

He will also work in you as we continue to live out God's purpose in our lives. 

Honestly, I am still in the process, 

especially in the PATIENCE AND TRUST section. 

I've seen and heard love stories failed because God wasn't at the center. 

And you know, I really want to do it right. 

Though, the world says, it is impossible,
but with our God it is so possible. 

It is still possible to wait for that right time.

It is possible to have a relationship that doesn't manipulate,

nor put earthly desires first. 

It is possible not to give our first kiss until the wedding day. 

Know that I am always praying for you. 

May the God of peace rule in our hearts as we wait on Him.

May we always be filled with love, joy, faith and hope from the Holy Spirit. 

With much love and anticipation,

Your sister in Christ and

Your future wife.

Waiting Still

How can I be patient

How can I wait still

When shall this end

Anticipation's going to spill

Why do I sound like this

Forgot patience is a virtue

That one I don't wanna miss 

All I want is to be with you

So even if I'm feeling this..

I'll keep waiting still

Even if I can't see the big picture

I'll keep waiting still 

His best will come rest assured 

And that is you

TRUE LIGHT WAITS

May dalawang ilaw na masayang nag-uuli habang nakasakay sa bisikleta, sina Ilaw-sampu at Ilaw-apat. Mukhang masayang masaya sila. Kitang kita ang kanilang pagning-ning habang magkasama. At kapag nagtatagpo ang kanilang mga mata ay may spark na makikita. Ngunit, nang sila ay tatawid sa kalsada, may bus na sumalubong sa kanila. Buti na lamang nakita ito ni Ilaw-apat kaya mabilis niyang hinawakan ang kamay ni Ilaw-sampu. Pagkatapos ng pangyayaring iyon, patuloy pa din silang nagbisikleta papunta sa isang lugar na lagi nilang pinupuntahan. Nang sila ay liliko papunta doon, may sasakyan na namang babangga sa kanila. At nakita naman ito ni Ilaw-sampu, kaya hinawakan niya ang kamay ni Ilaw-apat at agad-agad na hinigit papalayo sa sasakyan na sasalubong sa kanila. Napakabilis ng pangyayaring iyon, ngunit para kay Ilaw-apat ay tila "nagslow-mo" ang paligid at biglang "nagfast-forward." Sa kabila ng nangyari, may galak pa din sa puso ni Ilaw-apat dahil kasama niya naman si Ilaw-sampu. Hindi binitawan ni Ilaw-sampu ang kamay ni Ilaw-apat, kung baga ay holding hands while biking ang peg nila. =D Lalong nagning-ning ang dalawa na parang sasabog sa kasiyahang nadarama.

Aking panalangin sa pagsasama nila habang nagbibisikleta na kahit may mga makasalubong silang malulupit na pagsubok ay patuloy silang magning-ning upang pati paligid nila ay lumiwanag din. =D

Ngunit sabi sa kanila ni ILAW MANLILIKHA, “Unahin niyo muna Ako. Madami pa kayong dapat  matutunan at gawin. Patuloy kayong magningning kahit ‘di kayo magkasama.”

Kaya naman, agad na sumunod sina Ilaw-sampu at Ilaw-apat sa sinabi ni ILAW MANLILIKHA. Pumunta sila sa lugar kung saan sila matututo ng husto sa pinagagawa sa kanila. Kailangan muna nilang gawin ang mga dapat gawin. Kailangan muna nilang maghintay sa tamang panahon upang sila'y magkasama muli. Hindi nila alam ang mangyayari sa hinaharap, ngunit panatag sila dahil alam nila na sila'y ginagabayan ng pinaka-dakilang ILAW sa lahat.