DEAR GOD'S BEST (2nd letter)

I decided to write this letter because first and foremost, 

I want to honor God with my heart and I want to honor you as my future love.

In these past years, I've been dealing with trust issues. 

There was a fear inside of me that kept on bursting not to trust people, especially, men.

 Something happened in the past that really hurt my heart. 

(I'm gonna tell it to you when it's time.)

And this past kept on holding me back and hurting me. 

It really affected my trust in people and sadly, in my relationship with God. 

And I just want to say sorry because 

I thought that I couldn't trust you either. 

That wrong mindset gave me an idea that you will also leave and betray me. 

And this fear, I surrender to Jesus. 

I'm sorry for judging you too early. 

I'm sorry for almost giving up on waiting for that 

God-given and orchestrated time
that we'll see each other with our very own eyes. 

Forgive me. 
I'm sorry for being self-centered. 
I CHOOSE TO LET GO OF THE PAST AND GIVE IT TO ABBA FATHER'S HANDS.
From now on, I CHOOSE TO TRUST GOD that He is able to move mightily
in our story. And I CHOOSE TO TRUST YOU. 

I am persistently praying that God will work in my heart

 to fully trust Him on this and that 

He will also work in you as we continue to live out God's purpose in our lives. 

Honestly, I am still in the process, 

especially in the PATIENCE AND TRUST section. 

I've seen and heard love stories failed because God wasn't at the center. 

And you know, I really want to do it right. 

Though, the world says, it is impossible,
but with our God it is so possible. 

It is still possible to wait for that right time.

It is possible to have a relationship that doesn't manipulate,

nor put earthly desires first. 

It is possible not to give our first kiss until the wedding day. 

Know that I am always praying for you. 

May the God of peace rule in our hearts as we wait on Him.

May we always be filled with love, joy, faith and hope from the Holy Spirit. 

With much love and anticipation,

Your sister in Christ and

Your future wife.